Standing before the Cross of Jesus as a Child
Don’t be afraid, my dearest brother, though you may have seen or may still see the devil sending you spiritual discouragement and darkness by filling you with all sorts of evil thoughts and preoccupations in order to disturb the peace and patience of your heart and soul…It is not that he thinks you will fall in those struggles and temptations (for he already knows that you are determined to die rather than offend God mortally with your will). No, he does this to bring you to such a state of discouragement that you will abandon all your religious exercises, thinking you have sinned when you haven’t sinned at all. But I don’t want you to do that…If you can do nothing else, at least stand before the cross and say, “Jesus! Jesus! I entrust myself to our Lord Jesus Christ.”
You know evil thoughts may come, but if the will does not consent…it is no sin…Find your encouragement in your good and holy will and don’t worry about the evil thoughts. Realize that God’s goodness allows the devil to torment us in order to make us humble ourselves and recognize his goodness, and to make us take refuge within his most tender wounds as a child takes refuge in its mother. ..It is such boundless love that moves him to give [us] troubles and permit temptations as well as consolation, since his will wants nothing else than that we be made holy.
Keep living within the tender wounds of Christ, and in God’s holy love.